Idiot Syndrome & A Repost

Just complaining about me again. Didn’t get enough
sleep last night, what with all the thunder and lightning all night
long. I don’t even think it was raining past midnight (bedtime), but
the lightning wouldn’t stop. Normally, these are calming things to me
and I sleep better. But apparently because we experience them
so infrequently down here, I’ve become slightly texafied and am
startled by lightning/thunder while sleeping. weird. So, partially as a
result of the lack of sleep AND it’s Monday, and I just feel this way,
here you go:

To illustrate how I am feeling today, I am reposting an entry from April, 2005. Enjoy.

The Imposter Theory

So, my wonderful friend Karla, after reading one of my responses to
her ‘2005 get to know your friends’ survey, informed of the concept of
the Imposter Theory. My comment that triggered her reaction went
something like this:

“33. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF? getting out of school, finding a job, and then
everyone finally realizing that’s it not a learning curve, I really DON’T know what I’m doing.”


She replied by telling me that I’ll be fine and that my attitude is
actually called “the imposter theory”. I was intrigued by this idea
that there is an entire theory around this attitude, so I Googled it.
Now, the first wave of pages were all devoted to conspiracy theories
about Oswald, Elvis, Paul, Jesus, and all sorts of ‘Imposters’. But I
did eventually happen onto a site that talks about learning styles,
which then linked to an entire article about Imposter Theory which you
can read HERE. In the article, the basic premise of the Imposter Theory goes like this:
” I don’t belong
here…I’m clever and hard–working enough to have faked them out all
these years and they all think I’m great but I know better…and one of
these days they’re going to catch on…they’ll ask the right question and
find out that I really don’t understand…and then…and then….
“

All I could say was, “that’s me!”-
So if knowledge is power, I at least feel better knowing that I’m not the only one like this =)
Have a great day,
Imposter # 260,456,789