It’s not a ‘bad’ day per say, it’s just not good at this point. I have been in a major/minor funk lately that has been difficult to shake. Unfortunately, one of the best ways i have found to feel better is to procrastinate instead of doing what i’m supposed to be doing. I’m still getting my work done, but not super fast or with any kind of enthusiasm. If I look at everything from a completely rational sensible standpoint, things are pretty good, even great. But i’ve just been anxious and sort of depressed (in the sense of just not wanting to do anything) for the past several weeks. I get major “doubt” attacks when it comes to some stuff I’m working on and there are just so many other little and not so little things. I just needed a vent post. I think part of my problem is that I haven’t talked to anyone really about things that are bothering me ( l did a little today). It’s a catch-22 of sorts (please don’t correct me if the analogy isn’t spot on, thanks), because there are people that would be perfect to talk to about what is bothering me, but those people are under a lot of stress themselves, and I don’t want to burden them with my problems and increase their own, so I just keep it all to myself and just hit the kickboxing bag a little harder each week. Which thankfully does produce the good benefit of stronger arm and leg muscles in my ongoing fitness battle with myself. I need a shrink. Oh well. There are good days and bad for everyone and the good usually outnumber the bad. These are the verses I am clinging to today….
Philippians 4:5-7 (New International Version)
5Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.